more than just talking about it

Yawwnnnn...I'm tired today. I have been tired all week. I spent my weekend out of town with friends and I still don't feel like I have caught up.

Even though I was out of town, I still weighed in with a loss. 4.2 to be exact. That makes me happy. Shows me that I am on the right track.

I have been doing alot of soul searching. I know I don't try much with my weight loss which seems really odd to me because I think about it 24/7. So I decided to go back and see how much effort I had given this year. I count calories, so I can easily tell what days I counted and what days I haven't by my food log which is also my calendar. There are 3 categories.

Days I didn't even try (page is empty)
Days I started out trying, but got lost along the way (at least something was entered that day)
Days I counted (there is a total)

Here is the breakdown so far this year...
13% of the time I counted
12% of the time I started out counting
and 74% of the time I didn't even try at all.

I have faced myself and I am shocked. Literally shocked. 74% of the time I didn't even start out trying. Wow. What a slap of reality. I am glad I didn't figure this out when I wasn't trying (which is most of the time!). Having a good week behind me makes me better able to handle and process the truth.