Oooops!! Just realized (thanks to the comment) that I didn't update on Monday!!! Thanks so much for keeping tabs on me!!!
Monday I weighed in at 354. Which put me at a 2.6 lb gain for the week. It actually sounds worse than it is. On Sunday morning, I was up .4 of a lb. On Monday, I was up 2.6. I really didn't do well on Mother's Day. I didn't do bad for breakfast, but lunch/dinner was quite bad. And then I took the dessert I didn't finish home...and ate it.
But the good news is that I am still at it. The scale is inching back down. I knew the 2.6 wasn't real, but some of it is! The bad news is that is that I have to admit that even though I am writing down everything, I haven't been good about measuring this week...at all. I have been in kind of a funk this week. Every day, I say that I am going to buckle down and do better and then I kind of slack off. Counting and writing is doing a great job of keeping me from backsliding, but I am finding that I have very little motivation to attack this with the energy and gusto that it truly needs. I am capable of so much more.
Previously, if I wasn't actively "on plan", I happily hid my head in the sand about my situation. My head has not been in the sand for 8 weeks, but the reality of how big I am and how I look is hard to live with. I think about it all the time. At the ball games, when I teach. So much more than before. And I know that I am working on it, but the reality is that I am not working very hard...therefore, I am not making that much progress. I need to lose, not maintain!! This month will not show a 10 lb loss and that was my benchmark. And for someone who weighs in the 350 and can easily lose weight, I do not feel like I am setting my standards too high.
Soooooo, now that we have figured out how to keep me on plan (still thrilled about that). How do we make me try harder? I realize there is no real answer to this question...just thinking out loud.
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- Sandi
- I started this blog 200 lbs overweight. I now have under 100 lbs left to lose. My goal was to save my life by losing weight and become the active, fun loving woman I was inside. I am most of those things now, but have a ways to go! Join me as I blog my way through this journey.
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Age: 44
Highest: 368 (7/12/10)
Current: 259.2 (7/9/12)
Goal: 168
Total Pounds lost: 108.8
Highest: 368 (7/12/10)
Current: 259.2 (7/9/12)
Goal: 168
Total Pounds lost: 108.8
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2 comments:
Thrilled to see your update! And thrilled that you are still tracking your progress -- setting the behavior in stone for yet another week is so much more important than what the scale says. :)
Sustaining motivation is always hard. That's why it's so important to engrain behaviors as automatic -- when you get to the point where counting and measuring is just something you do without thinking about it, then motivation isn't quite so vital.
Good luck! Sending good thoughts your way!
I think there are many angles on successful weight loss, and the behavior patterns are just a part of the picture.
I would encourage you at this point to start considering the relationship you have with food from many viewpoints. In particular, consider whether you eat foods that are higher in calories or eat portions that are larger because you feel deprived if you do not do these things, or if you are eating mindlessly. If you start to understand how you approach food when you eat too much, then you can start to change those behaviors to more "productive" ones that facilitate weight loss.
Another thing which I found useful in my earlier processes was to think rather deeply about why I might NOT want to lose weight. That is, I thought about how being very fat (I started near your weight) was serving me positively. In particular, I realized that it hobbled me in ways that allowed me to avoid things I wanted to avoid but couldn't say "no" to (social obligations, requests from my husband to go out and about, changing my job, etc.). My weight made me very unhappy, but it also protected me from making certain choices or doing certain things. Being fat can serve you emotionally well, and overlooking that is one of the things which can contribute to failure to lose or to regaining after losses.
The other thing I'd recommend, and you didn't ask for my recommendations so you can ignore me completely if you prefer, is to start slowly scaling back portions. When I say slowly, I mean "slowly". Your stomach will adjust through time and calories will naturally go down.
Good luck!
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