I really do. Yes, I want to be thin and look good in clothes, I want to generally take up less space and I want to be pretty again. But what I really want to be is strong and agile. When I was watching the biggest loser on Wednesday they were training in the gym and she had them stepping up and then back down. No big deal except for how high the step was. It came almost to their hips and they were just stepping right up. I can barely do the stairs and they were making this huge step. I used to own "the firm" and I ended up selling it because the step on it was just too damn high for me. I want that. I want to be able to carry Jacob around. If there was an emergency and I had to hold Jacob for his safety it would almost kill me.
I want to be lean...I want to be fit...I want to be strong. I don't want to compete, nothing like that. Just nice and cut.
I know right now I need to focus on Cardio and get some of this weight off, but I am starting with weights anyway, just to get it in my routine. Then as I get thinner, I will focus more on the weights. My program at the YMCA will wrap up first week of January and then it will be up to me to go...on my own. I know I will continue to do water aerobics without effort, but I am really going to have to work at making other cardio and weights part of my routine.
I want to take vacations and do fun stuff like rock climbing, canoeing, zip lining and swimming with the dolphins. None of this can be done at my current weight or physical abilities. I want to have fun!!! I really enjoy my crafts and nothing makes me happier than sitting down and making a pair of earrings - but I need more. I need activity - I need to live life. I want that for me...I want that for Jacob and I want that for us as a family!!
Friday, December 08, 2006
I want to be strong
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I love The Biggest Loser, it can be very inspiring but it can also be very unhelpful at the same time. I wish we could all take 3 months off and have several hours a day for nothing but me time to work out and eat healthy at a luxury ranch. It's unrealistic but it gives so much hope when I see someone weighing over 400 lbs lose over 100 lbs in 3 months. I share a lot of your feelings Sandi, I can't play much with my son, I'm tired out, a lot of reasons why and my weight is one of them. I know I'd have more energy if I was 100 lbs less. I've let my weight loss slide, just unmotivated I guess or overwhelmed more like. It's so hard to keep up with everything, weight loss comes at the end.
Jen
I want it for you too hon, so so much. But most of all, I just want you to be happy, whatever that entails. Honestly, I wish I had some words of wisdom, but they seem to be failing me now. I guess because I know that want all too well, but don't know what exactly causes one to finally bridge the gap between want and do. Once again, all I can really say is, you'll get there hon, one way or another, you will do this thing.
Love ya bunches!
Bev
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