more than just talking about it

There is a woman I know that we'll call Pam (because I don't know a Pam). She is very short and very heavy. In fact, I think she might be bigger than me, and her lack of height does not help matters. So I was talking to someone about Pam and they said "Oh, I think I know who you are talking about, she's HUGE, right?" Now this person isn't small either, so it wasn't meant in a mean way, it was just a descriptive word. It made me so sad to realize how often that must be the descriptive word of choice for me. :( People are generally very nice to me and seek me out, so it makes me feel normal. It makes me forget.

I know that right now I am doing everything I can to resolve this situation, but I can't tell you how much I wish I could resolve it RIGHT NOW!!! I don't want to be HUGE!