more than just talking about it

HEAD IN THE SAND

I don't know how, but I have always had my head in the sand when it came to my weight. Like it wasn't that bad. I am very skilled at accommodating my weight, and I have an awesome marriage, good job, good friends. I wake up happy. And when I look in the mirror, I lean forward some and the chins go away some. I just never really saw it. I mean I knew that I was big, but I think I never really knew how bad it was. Yesterday I had to renew my license. My picture was shocking to me. Just shocking. I can't look like that. But I do. All I can do is my best every day, but this weight can not come off quick enough for me.

My cycle is over and the scale is back to properly reflecting my efforts. Mid week and I am still doing good. I count my calories and stay around 1500 and pay attention to the fat %. Pretty basic. being the holiday season, I really haven't had any time for exercise, but I am on vacation for 2 weeks starting 12/21. That's when I plan to put an exercise program into place. There are so many reason I need to exercise outside of losing weight.

Tomorrow we are going out to dinner for my b-day and I already have all the calories written down. We are going to Red Robbin because I am dying for a cheeseburger!!! But I will skip the fries and get apple slices, because what I really want is the burger and they are huge to begin with. I will be suprised if I can finish it all. Then Sunday we are having a family Christmas Party at my house. Sunday @ 6:00 no less. I think I am just going to make myself a skinless chicken breast and have something with it. I can't work this hard all week, just to have it not show because I made poor choices @ 6:00 on Sunday!!!