more than just talking about it

Last weekend, I started reflecting on my progress. I hadn't been on plan at all, and my weight was starting to jump up. As of last Monday I was still 17 lbs down from my highest, but Tuesday was going to be March 1st and I was still bouncing around. 2 months have past and I am simply not making any progress. So, on Monday, February 28th, I started a 1 year commitment on plan. I am committing to stay between 1500 and 1800 calories for 365 days. I will also be working on getting more active, eating better, staying away from the sugar. But the 1500 - 1800 calories is the commitment, all the rest is gravy. We all know that I know what to do, I just don't do it. I keep getting distracted and tweaking and then lose my way completely. I need to commit or I am going to lose my footing completely. I am tired from hanging on he side of this mountain using every excuse in the world why I can't get to the top. ENOUGH! I can and I will...at least for the next 365 days. I've told my mom, I've told Steve and now I am telling you. I am not doing a contract with myself or anything, I am just committing. I am not even going to try and speculate how much success I can have in a year when I actually stick to it, I am just going to make it through each day one day at a time. Steve said something about that I still have to eat healthy and I told him that I absolutely plan on eating healthy, but that if I am having a crappy day, I would rather have 1800 calories of crap rather than 4000 calories of crap. At first it will be easy, but we know it then will get hard. I plan on trying to read more weight loss/fitness blogs and really throw myself into being as active as possible as often as possible. Spring is coming, so the timing couldn't be better!

I was reading on of Tom Venuto's books and a woman was talking about how she couldn't decide how organic she should be eating when it came to fruits and vegetables. He asked her how many fruits and vegetables she was eating now and she said hardly any. He suggested that maybe before she worries about the organic aspect, she should work on incorporating them into her diet. That's me in a nutshell. I worry about the little stuff when I don't even have the basics under control. That's what this 1 year commitment is all about for me. Getting the basics under control.

Today's weight was...342.4, so I am down 8.6 lbs for the week!! Awesome! My calories for the week looked like this...
2/28: 1663
3/1: 1477
3/2: 1318
3/3: 1319
3/4: 1477
3/5: 1437
3/6: 1747
Average: 1491

Tonight I am going back to water aerobics. And I am going to start weight lifting at home. Let's get 'r done!