Wednesday, October 12, 2011

WEEK 32 RESULTS: Gained 2.4

MONTH 8 RESULTS: Lost 1.8

I will admit that month 8 was not my best month. In looking back and trying to figure out what I did different, I indulged on "special" occasions when in past months, I made sure I stuck to my 1800 calories no matter what the occasion. Why? That's the question. I indulged when we went out for my mom's birthday, then at a shower, bunko, dinner in Indy (reason for the 2.4 gain this week) and a few times I went over because I "wanted" something. It kind of snowballed. And it is stopping. Obviously my goal is not to lose 1.8 lbs a month. If that's what I ended up with after giving it 100%, that would be one thing, but that's not the case...at all.

For Month 9 I will stay within my 1800 calories, every day, no matter the occasion. That's really the only way to get the job done. And it will be no small task. The "special" occasions in the next 4 weeks are many. Jake is having his kid party this weekend which means pizza and ice cream cake will be in the house on Saturday and donuts on Sunday. Then we have his family party which means cake (3 layers, Cappuccino cake, Fudge filling, caramel filling, buttercream icing, sprinkled with toffee pieces...just saying), more pizza and appetizers. A wedding, another birthday party, and Halloween. But if I indulge on those days and stay perfect all the others, month 9 will be a wash. I am not doing all this work for a wash! When I get to goal, a wash will be great, now, no freaking way! So I will manage all those events by planning and choosing wisely and staying within my 1800 calorie limit, NO MATTER WHAT. It's the ONLY way. If I decide right now that I will not indulge, it makes it so much easier to manage that day.

I can and will do better.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

While I think the world of you and what you have accomplished it kind of bothers me that there are going to be pizza, donuts, cakes etc in celebration of your son's birthday. Why? Why does every holiday and celebration have to be food focused? I realize that you don't want to deprive your child and family of treats that you need to avoid but that doesn't mean that they really need them either. Can't you celebrate the birth of your child with low fat turkey burgers just as well as pizza? I don't know about you but I am doing what I am doing to be a role model for my kids and changing the way they eat for the better. I don't know if I had told you this but I am going for WLS in a week. We've been working on cutting out things like cookies, chips, candies etc etc and focusing on healthier foods and snacks and I'm sure you are as well. What I want to continue to work on is disassociating food with emotions (try going on optifast for 3 weeks and you'll realize food emotions you never knew you had) and things like birthdays and holidays. Celebrate in non-food ways. Anyway off my soap box.

Sandi said...

Can I assume Anonymous is Jen? Jen, There are no cookies, candies or chips in my house. On a day to day basis, we eat pretty healthy and do our best to make the good choices. But on his birthday, when we are having a bunch of people over, I will let him have pizza and cake. More than anything I want him to learn balance. That certain foods are Ok in moderation. There will also be healthy choices available for anyone who wants them. When it's just the 3 of us, I would insist on a more healthy option. But 4 11 year old boys, 1 who doesn't like meat...That's a tough crowd. And 20-25 relatives, they don't want turkey burgers and I won't force my way of life on them. All i ask is to be able to make my own choices and they have to do the same. Good luck with your surgery. Please let me know how things go!

Anonymous said...

Sorry Sandi, I didn't mean to be judgemental. No I'm sure that you guys generally do eat healthy and that of course everyone needs to learn moderation. I guess what I am feeling I am not communicating effectively. I'm just finding with doing optifast that I am discovering I have way too many emotions around food, I guess that is what I am trying to say and just that not every celebration needs to be around food but that generally as a culture that it is an expectation. I'm not targeting what you are doing but just challenging long standing customs as maybe stuff that is not the best. Like a celebration of some sort is not complete if a particular sort of food is not present and I don't feel that is right. Like it wouldn't be Thanksgiving without a big turkey dinner with all the trimmings and everyone eats until they burst. Or Halloween without candy or Valentine's without chocolate and so on and so on. It's like we focus on the food rather than the event. I don't know, maybe I am out in left field with this.

I think you are doing so great Sandi, I really envy your willpower and perseverence so really I'm the last person to be giving you grief about what you are doing.

Best wishes always!

Jen

PS I forgot to sign the first one, usually I am pretty good about that, thought about it the second I hit the publish button!