more than just talking about it

November 11, 2009...359.6. *sigh*

As I weighed myself this morning, I though, how is it that I weigh 359.6 and not 159.6. There should be a 1 in front of that number, not a 3. I have been hoovering "around" 360 ever since I hit my all time high in February. At least I am maintaining!!! Ok, not funny.

Often times I "start over" when I am feeling badly, mainly because I am scared that this is it, this is the time that I get sick and it's serious. Today I feel relatively good. As good as someone who weighs 360 lbs can feel.

I was reading on my board (www.3fatchicks.com) and one lady posted about not how we need to do this because otherwise we will just start one diet after another and the next thing you know it's 25 years later and you are fatter than ever and not worrying about how you look in a bathing suit. You might be losing your sight from diabetes or have to give yourself injections of insulin. Or, have your hips or knees replaced. She said to just do it because the alternative is terrible. It is almost 25 years later, but I don't have any of those health problems...yet. I'd like not to get them. How? Oh yes, now I remember. Watch my calories and move my butt!!

I was also inspired by Daniel last night from the biggest loser. He went home, but he has done so awesome and continues to do awesome. He has lost over 200 lbs, which is what I need to lose. He has reminded me that this is possible!! Thank you Daniel!!

I need to start a list and keep adding to it that includes the reason that I am doing this. The reasons that I am going to change my life, for once and for all. Recently, I laid my shirt on the bed and then when I came back into the room, I was shocked to realize that laid out like that, my shirt took up 3/4th of the bed. This is not who I want to be.

My 1st goal is to get under 300. I know that if I put in 100% I should be ale to reach this goal fairly quickly.

Today is on plan, food entered into fitday and a trip to the gym is planned.