more than just talking about it

Poser...

That's what I am right now. A weight loss poser. If you ask me how it's going, I'll happily tell you I've lost 24 lbs!!! You'll see me weigh and measure my food. But this week, it's all just posing because I not been on plan even 1 day this week. Most days this week, I have started out on plan. Wrote everything down, took my lunch. But I get home and the off plan eating starts. At the beginning of the week, it was the cheez-it's and the break-away cookies. But even after they were gone, it's bread and butter, not weighing or measuring my dinner. But yesterday was my true sign that things were going down hill quickly. Even though I had packed a healthy breakfast, I opted for a 240 calorie danish and a big cup of coffee. Keep in mind that a coffee for me has about 250 calories of cream and sugar. That's just the way I like it. I haven't had that breakfast in 10 weeks. I did eat my packed lunch of chili, but instead of my afternoon 90 calorie granola bar, I had a package of cookies. Then I was bringing food to my mom's for dinner for her birthday. She wanted a tuna melt from this local burger joint. I ordered a bacon cheese burger and fries. It didn't even dawn on me until later that I didn't even consider making a choice, I just ordered the burger. They have grilled chicken sandwiches, which is what I would have ordered if I was on plan. So I had to face the fact that I was not having a bad week, but instead was completely off plan. This behavior is the way old Sandi behaves. Acts like she is on plan and trying, but she's not. That scared me. This is week 10. I haven't been on plan for this long in forever!! I've lost 24 lbs. usually around 15 lbs lost, I lose control and gain it all back. If I don;t stop this RIGHT NOW, that is exactly what is going to happen. I cannot waste any more time!!

I woke up this morning determined to do a U turn (as Dr. Oz would say) and finish off the week on plan. Ok, so I had 4 days that weren't on plan. So get back on plan and do what you set out to do!!! I can easily undo 4 days of damage. I packed my lunch and wrote it all down and have accounted for dinner. But the big step in the right direction was calling hubby and admitting that I wasn't on plan, hadn't been all week, was getting back on plan today and needed his help staying on plan all weekend. At home is my big problem, so I wanted to give myself some help. Hubby wants to see me succeed, so it will help having been honest with him.

I will not go out like this!! This time I am going all the way!!!