Friday, Saturday and Sunday I was completely mindless about what I ate. I didn't write it down, I didn't make any choices, I simply ate whatever I wanted. I'm still not sure why I allowed this behavior. It wasn't a great week to start with, Tuesday was bad at covered Bridge. Wednesday and Thursday were decent, but they could have been better. Somewhere along the line I decided that I wasn't going to worry about it and I didn't. Hiding my head in the sand like this is really my typical behavior. It's the old me rearing its ugly head. That's how I got this big in the first place. It showed on the scale today too. 333.8. That’s up quite a bit from even yesterday, but still. I need to learn that I don't get to be mindless like this. And to go along with it, we ate out a lot. That's going to kill our budget. And that's the way we used to behave. Spend the money regardless if we had it to spend. I even blew off the exercise. I went yesterday, but only did weights and that was only because my mom made me. (Thanks mom!)
Today I will be MINDFUL. I packed my lunch, I brought my calorie journal. Back on track. 100%. I am not willing to let this die. I am disappointed by last week, but what's done is done and I can only change today and tomorrow. I have to skip water aerobics today because I have a dentist appointment that will run pass the class. It's a good thing really, because for some reason my right calf has been a complete knot since yesterday. I think it was all the cleaning in my bare feet. I'm not minding a chance to let that heal a bit. But I will hit the gym 3x this week and do water aerobics on Wednesday.
Jacob's party went really well. I enjoy having family parties. It's nice to get everyone together. Plus the house gets clean!!! :)
Monday, October 23, 2006
Mindless Eating
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Sandi, why don't you log on every single day regardless of what you are doing, whether it is a weekday or weekend and just spend 5 minutes posting what you are doing that day and what your goals are. Just turn the computer on while you are getting dressed and then just post for 5 minutes here and I'll bet that will help focus what you are going to do for that day. I know it is hard turning the computer on for 5 minutes, it is tempting to surf other sites, check e-mail etc but you need to do something first thing in the morning to focus yourself. You really can't afford to have 'to heck with it' days. You know that yourself. When you've lost 150lbs then you can have a day a week when you indulge. I'm kicking you in the butt Sandi! You've got to learn to cope with these days that aren't your normal routine and I think focusing first thing in the morning either on your on-line blog or in a journal at home, write down your goals for the day, what you are planning on doing, what you are planning on eating and right there you will see where you might be going off track. What is that saying...a failure to plan is a plan to fail, this sounds like what you go through on the weekends and on these non-routine days.
C'mon Sandi, you are better than this, you really are. What is food really? Instead of enjoying eating, lately I've actually started hating it and I don't eat as much as I used to. Fatty foods, foods that slide done your gullet without even chewing for 5 seconds are starting to make me feel sick because I can feel what they are doing to my body. They are heart attacks, strokes, diabetes, knee replacements, feelings of self hatred and low self esteem, embarrassment and a million other negative things and so totally not worth sticking in my mouth.
Sorry this has been a rant and not against you Sandi but I know how you are feeling and you deserve better. You can do better.
((hugs)) I'm so proud of you, Sandi! The old Sandi would have given up at this point, rihgt? But the new Sandi analyzed the weekend, saw what went wrong (mindless eating, eating out), decided it wasn't worth it, picked herself up and is keeping going.
Yay for you, Sandi!!
I agree with Meg--YAY for YOU!!
And I don't know who anonymous is....but that is definitely the voice of experience! I learned alot just from reading that!
Ug, mindless eating. We know when we're doing it and we know it'll come to no good, yet we go ahead and do it anyway don't we? I’m sorry that “the old you reared it’s ugly head” over the weekend, but the others are right y’know, you came back with a plan and ready to go. You didn’t let it spiral into weeks of crappy eating, you took stock of what you did and you put it behind you in favor of starting this week anew. So even though the old you peeked out momentarily, the new you took care of the situation quite nicely and showed the old broad just who’s the boss. Keep it up hon, I think you’ve got things under control.
Bev
Hi Sandi, sorry to hear you had a bad week, we all have those. Mindless eating is my middle name! Don't let it keep you down, pick yourself up, dust yourself off and jump back on that wagon. I agree though that posting a few minutes every day first thing might help, that's what I"m doing right now, I logged into 3FC for a few minutes already and I feel more motivated for it. Take care Sandi, hope things are going well this week.
Jen
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