Tuesday, March 23, 2010

I thought for sure this post would be raving about how good I am doing, but it's not. I weighed yesterday and I hit another all time high. 365.2 Wonderful. Granted, I am up because I am going to start, but that doesn't matter a hill of beans because I also know that I lost control and ate whatever I wanted and didn't move.

I looked in the mirror today and saw a round, poofy face, two of them in fact. I didn't have a plan today, but I thought maybe I'd just have a protein shake for breakfast. I had brought with me 4 peeps. (yes, I love peeps) As I was munching on peeps for breakfast, I decided I wanted a cup of coffee. As I was waiting for my coffee to brew I thought about what I needed to do, South Beach maybe, maybe Seattle Sutton or something. No, I know what to do. Count calories. 1600 calories a day. Period. End of discussion. Stick to that and you WILL LOSE WEIGHT!!! I need to start tomorrow and be strict with myself. For my whole life I have not been a coffee drinker and recently, I found that I love it...with tons of cream and sugar. I finally remembered to bring a measuring spoon with me and found that for me, an ideal cup of coffee has 6 tsp of powdered creamer and 12 tsp of sugar. That worked out to be 255 calories for a cup of coffee. I know I could use splenda, but it tastes sooo much better with sugar. This all started because I gave up pop for lent. As I starred at my cup of coffee with 255 calories, I pulled out my protein shake packet. 230 calories and 35 grams of protein. This needs to start now, today, no waiting for tomorrow. I grabbed my shaker, protein pack and my cup of coffee and headed to the kitchen. I dumped my coffee down the drain and made my protein shake. I will not spend another day killing myself.

TODAY I will eat 1600 calories or less.

This video came to me today and it is so appropriate. Thank you Peggy!

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2 comments:

Diane Fit to the Finish said...

Thanks so much for the nice comment on my Shape post today. I wanted to tell you that you can do this. If you ever want to email me please feel free. It's diane@fittothefinish.com.

Take care of yourself and stay strong!

3/23/2010 3:27 PM
screaming fatgirl said...

I can't tell you how many times I had the same talk with myself, and failed within days. Every time I tried and failed, I hated myself all the more and found it that much harder to try again. The failures just undermined my confidence such that I felt it was inevitable.

I would suggest continuing to monitor what you are doing and to slowly scale back and make substitutions. This is how I started last June. Eventually, that lead to gradual introduction of calorie counting into my life (which I hate), and what I consider to be "normal" eating patterns. I did all of this step by step and now I largely eat healthily, but have small amounts of treats without binging.

Like you, I like my coffee very sweet and milky, but I manage this without the calories. Of course, I use Splenda, so that helps right there. The first thing I did was step down my coffee cup size bit by bit so I needed less milk. The other thing I do is use full-fat milk rather than creamer. About 1/3 of my coffee cup is milk (which I heat in the microwave to 95 degrees - heating it makes it creamy and doesn't affect the coffee temperature).

My method was slow starting and is based on the idea that not only our minds, but our bodies are accustomed to our eating patterns. By making a slow transition, it's easier to reach a point where we can succeed everyday rather than make a dramatic change and fail because it's too hard.

My method isn't fast acting, but I've lost 100 lbs. since last June. My rate has accelerated since I've reached the point where I am now.

Good luck to you. I really know how you feel since I've been there so many times before myself (literally, dozens of times).

3/23/2010 7:43 PM

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