more than just talking about it

So the next thing my wonderful book talked about was positive affirmations and how you really can rewire your brain. (Silverbirch - this is very much like Beck...isn't it) So last night I wrote up several cards that say "I am willing to go to the gym today!" Willing of course is in red! I taped one to the mirror, put one on the stove, one in my date book and one in my car. I have many things that need to be fixed, but we are starting with this one. I have lots of stuff to work out at home with, but it's simply not the same. I need the gym. I work out harder and longer there and eventually I will need the weights. Plus I want to be around like minded people and I won't find them in my basement!!! Once I have gone to the gym consistently for a month, I am going to hire a personal trainer and get back into the weights, but I want to prove to myself that I am committed first. I should only need her for 5 sessions to get me going and then I can do it myself.

I am also setting some new ground rules at home. I sit around and watch TV too much. So I am working on lessening that. I am even considering making myself sit on the floor hoping that since I won't be very comfortable, I will go do something else.

Steve thought the note on the mirror was my telling him that I was willing to go to the gym with him today! I explained that they were for me, but that I had plans to drag him to the gym with me Saturday and Sunday.