more than just talking about it

January - March with nothing. For 2 months I have had nothing to say. We all know that's because I haven't done anything. Not to say that I haven't started a million times, I just stopped a million times too. My weight is up some, no big surprise. I haven't posted here because I wanted to wait until I had a smidge of success to report...ummm that didn't happen.

I have been listening to Tom Venuto's book The body Fat Solution on CD on the way to work everyday. In it he talks about the Seven Essential Success Attitudes and Beliefs that make change possible. They are...

1. Possibility
2. Capability
3. Necessity
4. Worthiness
5. Desire
6. Expectation
7. Willingness

On most of these, I am there, but it's #7 that really got to me. He talks about the difference between wanting and wishing to be lean and healthy and being willing to do whatever it takes to be lean and healthy. This is in a nutshell what my problem is. I have never been willing to do what it takes. I know exactly what it will take to lose the weight, I said it in my last post Count Calories...Exercise...Water...Sleep. I have all the answers, use fitday to log my calories, go to the YMCA everyday, drink plenty of water and get some zzzzz's. Get right back on plan after a bad choice, go to the gym even if it's for 15 min. I am not that newbie with a million questions on how to do this. I know it all, but I am not willing to do it...Obviously. Why? Why am I not willing to make these changes when the reward will be so great. A life full of energy and vitality, a better life with my son and husband. Why am I not willing to make these changes when I know that my current path will lead to disability, lesser quality of life and an early death. Why is that not enough to make me willing? I have "decided" to do this "once and for all" so many times only to go off plan after months, weeks, sometimes even days. I have done this so much and for so long that I am almost somewhat bored with the whole thing. I live and breath this constantly, yet I don 't have any success because my attempts are so short lived and most of my effort is planning to, intending to and meaning to. Very little action.

So what now? I am not sure, but something has to give. I think the answer lies simply in action. Get off my ass, go the gym every day and everything else will follow? Maybe? Just maybe. I am not sure how much I should plan for this, I am real good at planning, maybe I should just plan later and act now.