Monday, August 28, 2006
Spawn of Satan
That's how I shall be refering to myself today. I was kinda borderline crabby yesterday, well not today. I am in full blown bitch mode!! I woke up ok, just tired (as usual) and then I got on the scale 338.2. 1 fucking lb away from my highest. It put me in the most foul mood. Negativity is spewing from my pours. I can tell you that I am not thinking nice things about myself today. It didn't motivate me, it pissed me off!!! I am joking about being "Spawn of Satan" here at work so that if I come across wrong, they will understand. I think I will spend most of my day in my office today so no one has to deal with me. And I don't think I will expose you with any more of my negativity. Hopefully tomorrow will be a brighter day.
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Sorry to hear that you are feeling negative but that is something I can relate to. My weight hit an all time high last week and it didn't make me mad, just really depressed and right now couldn't care less what I eat. I had pb and toast and bite sized brownies and a big glass of milk for breakfast. Ah that's nutrition for you!
Jen
Hi,
I've seen your blog thru 3FC and just wanted to offer some words of encouragement. I think you can totally do this but you may need to do some preparatory work on yourself by having a brutally honest conversation with yourself to figure out what's going on, what's wrong that you are not making yourself a priority and what you are willing to do to change that. I weighed 280 lbs some 6 months ago, and I now weigh 235, without optifaast or any other special program. Just healthy eating and exercise. I never thought I could do this, EVER, but I had that conversationwith myself, wrote a lot of stuff, and decided to take it one day at a time and do everything in my power everyday to just move towards a healthier me,and that's what my plan has been. I know you can do it, but you have to make a firm decision, and just take it one day at a time for the next year or so. My e-mail is karinesar@gmail.com if you'd like to connect.
Awwww, honey! Forgive me for chuckling upon reading your title, but seriously, I can totally relate! I hope all the inner office skinny minnies have been sufficiently warned, I'd hate to see them snapped in two out of sheer ignorance. This day will eventually be through, hopefully without violence and mayhem, and a new day will begin with promise of renewed energy and peace. In the immortal words of Annie, the sun will come out tomorrow, you can bet your bottom dollar, tommorroooooow!! Now excuse me while I run to take cover! ;D
Love ya babe!
Bev
Sandi-
We all have these days.. I had about 2 years straight of these kind of days. I totally LOVE your candidness. It makes me appreciate you even more! Keep at it though, because I know you can do it. I know how it feels to be feeling so negative about yourself, and it is totally true, when you feel that way, there is not much you can do to get out of the funk. I know you will though. You're one strong lady you know. You do have all the tools to get on track. I know its annoying to hear this stuff when you don't want to hear it. But Sandi- I know you can beat this crazy little thing called weight. I just KNOW it! Bitch as much as you need to because it really does HELP when it comes to getting your mindframe back in order.
I'm gonna keep checking on you girl! Let's do this thing together!! Seriously!
Gretchen
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