9/21/06
Calories: 1792
Exercise: 20 min walk
Since I am doing a 12 week - get your shit together program, I thought this would be a good time to start my 100 days of weight loss (that book that Bev bought me). Today will be day 1: I used to be that way but now I'm different... Basically the idea is that your past does not predict your future. My task for today is to list any fears or negative thoughts that have hurt my weight loss in the past come up with new endings. Hmmm...
- I used to go off my diet on Thursday or Friday and then blow the whole weekend, but now I use the weekend to get in more exercise instead of eating.
- I used to eat one thing off plan and then blow the whole day, but now I log it in my journal and work around it.
- I used to think about losing weight all the time, but now I am actually doing something about it.
- I used to think that I could buy a box of cookies and only have 2 each night, but now I know not to even buy trigger foods.
It's an interesting thought. I'm different. I don't have to be the person that I once was. I can be new, different. At any point in time I can change who I am, how I behave. Totally re-invent myself. Something to think about!
The medically supervised diet nurse finally called back. I am feeling pretty good about where I am right now and what I am doing, but since things don't last, I figured it might not be a bad idea to go ahead and meet with her and see what the program is all about. I have an appointment to meet with her next week. It'll be nice to go in there with some food journals and exercise, instead of the lost soul I am sometimes. Um, I mean "that I used to be".
Thanks for all your great advice re: Jacob, I really appreciate it. This morning over breakfast we talked about it. Nobody from his class is there in the morning and his friend Jared is only there sometimes and never as early as I drop him off. So we talked about what he could do by himself and identified 3 different computer games he could play. I talked briefly about making friends with some of the kids that do come that early, but didn't dwell on it because that is something I can't control. He wanted to know why he has to be there so early and I explained to him that I start work early, so that I can get off earlier and spend more time with him and Steve after school. I told him it was a trade off. He seemed to understand that. When we got there he started to act like there would be a problem, but then I immediately focused on which game he was going to choose, said my I love you's and got out of there with nothing more than a "bye mom!!".
3 comments:
Good job on getting Jacob focused on his games rather than being upset about his friend being there. My son had a rough time at daycare this morning, no idea why, I had to hand him off to one of the staff and leave but I know he was fine before I was even out of the driveway so I try not to stress about it.
That is interesting about thinking about being a different person. I often think about going back to being the person I used to be before I gained all this extra weight. I want to be that person but without the terrible eating habits! Sounds like a very good book to help work through things.
Jen
It certainly looks like you're a gal with a plan and have the will to follow it!
Weekends are still a struggle for me too, because of the lack of structure. I can plan my entire work day week perfectly and even handle a "surprise" if it arises, but there's always the risk that the weekend may become a free-for-all. As usual though, I'll repeat that it becomes easier as it becomes routine.
Glad you (and Jacob) are coping with the separation anxiety situation.
Have a great weekend!
Ooooh, good job re: Jacob! You were both prepared and knew what to expect, hence a much less dramatic scene. Very nice, way to go chica!!
I used to be that way but now I'm different...
I like that, I really really like that.
Who we are and who we want to be are completely up to us, and by no means set in stone. It's a hard concept to embrace, especially considering that it can be applied to all areas of our lives, not just the areas we think are acceptable to re-invent about ourselves. Y'know, the stuff that won't cause too much conflict and what others will deem socially acceptable. But the truth is, if you decide that you want to be a hard core, pierced and tatted biker babe tomorrow, you can be. The choice is yours; it just depends on how hard you're willing to work for it.
I look forward to further entries re: this book, thanks for sharing it with us!
Love ya!
Bev
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