Interested or committed?

9/25
Calories: 1778
Exercise: 45 min water aerobics & 30 min water step intervals

Day 2 in my book talks about the difference between being interested in losing weight and being committed to losing weight. When you are interested, you may go for a couple of weeks, but anything such as a party or if someone brings in doughnuts can quickly throw you off track. You are motivated by losing and when you hit a plataue or don't lose as quicklyas you think you should, you quit. You blame everyone and everything for being the reason you can't stay on plan. When you are committed, you feel differently because you have a "no matter what" attitude. You stick to your plan no matter what the situation.

I would say that I am committed. For example, today is my 14th wedding anniversary and on Saturday we are going out for dinner. We had plans to go to a fine dining italian restarant. We always go there for our anniversary. The more I thought about it, the more I realized that there was no way I could go to this place and stay on plan. So I asked Steve if we could go to a steak place instead. At least there I can get a grilled chicken and a side and willl be able to stay on plan.

The book wants me describe how I will stick to my plan no matter what. If I eat something off plan, I will write it down and work around it and I will get in some daily activity even if I am too tired because I know it's what will make me healthy & strong. I am also supposed to do one thing today that shows I am truly committed. I think that will be going to the gym tonight. I have plans to go by the YMCA when Jacob goes to bed at 8:00. I don't have to go, there are other days that I can go during the week that I can use to complete my obligations, but going tonight would get me ahead of the game and would give me that much more exercise. I have been playing go/don't go mind games this morning already. So to show I am committed, I will go to the gym tonight, even though I know I will be tired.

Things with Jacob seem to be better. He is still complaining every day about why does he have to go to after scholl care every day. But I can deal with some complaining. This morning when I dropped him off at school, he said "mom, I don't want to go to afterschool care 4 days a week" and so I kissed him goodbye and said I love you and started to walk away. He put his little hands on his hips and stood half way out the door (I was walking down the long hall) and he said "mom, I'm serious!!!". I just yelled back, I love you! Goodbye!! :) His friend Grant's mom is home by 1:00 every day. I wonder how she would feel if Jacob came over once a week (she could pick the day) after school. That would be so fun for Jacob.